She's the one

She's the one when you can feel the chemistry soon as you meet her.

She's the one who you know you can immediately click.

Not just the fact that her physical appearance instantly attract you.

Not just the fact that her presentation in front of you instantly left you breathless.

But there is this bond that could immediately attract.

Like a magnet that stick north pole to south pole.

Like a chocolate that blends well in a vanilla float.

Like a bass groove that clicks well with a drum beat.

Like a guitar with a great amplifier, when both compliment each other.

Like a girl and a guy, who immediately there's a sense of right timing.

As if the girl has been waiting for the guy, and the guy has been longing for the girl.

It just so happen that the two suddenly match each other well.

Though both came from very different background.

Though both came from very sad and broken relationships.

Though both came from very unusual circumstances.

Though both came from very unexpected upbringing.

Though both have different preferences in things they like.

Though both have different inclination towards something the other may not like.

Somehow there's this sense of togetherness.

As if one could say there's no tomorrow without the other half.

And even so - Romeo and Juliet, even on the forbidden love, still manage to be in love.

Forbidden in the sense that it is not of the kind of love Christian doctrine encourages.

It is not the kind of love that Christian should encourage himself to a non-Christian girl.

Both came from very different background, both came from very different belief in God.

One believes in his life that He is the savior, and Jesus died for His sins. Because of this, he readily gives his whole life for Him.

The other believes that there is a God, but she felt that it is not fair to believe in One true savior, and not sure if she readily wants to commit to another. Her previous relationships have Christian tarnishing the image of God and His demonstration of love for the people.

So the two, despite very different beliefs, came together liking each other a lot.

Both desire each other a lot, but both want not this to end quickly, just like any other relationships.

This time there's a silent resolution - that both really go together the path of romance - til death do us part.

Till death do us part.

And he decided, after one sleepless night and the other - he decides.

If this relationship is really meant for what He wants, it would be up to Him.

If this relationship is not what He wants, he rather Him to take it off.

He asked for deliverance, and submission in totality towards Him - the Lord who saves him daily from the wretchedness of his sins.

So here's the prayer:

"Lord, please, if it is the true relationship that You have planned for, please teach me how to give her the best respect I could, and not only forgo her past, but also embrace her as a person I could be with forever during my time while I am alive. But Lord, if it is not of what You want, take this cup of suffering of mine, take it off, bring it away from me, so that I won't be tempted to be led into the path of unrighteousness. I don't want to leave You again. I don't want to Lord. Please, Lord I surrender her totally to You. Because I love You. You who has died for my sin, Jesus. Amen."

Dedication to Her, who loves me just like how I love her, but we decide to remain friend because we realize we are going too strong too fast, and decide to take things slowly, so that we know and learn each other well - and embrace the bad habits and the good habits in the same manner.